Pride can be so subtle that it is hardly recognizable as pride. You may even think you’re being humble!
Everything started with Lucifer. He was a very important angel in heaven. God had given him a much higher position than the other angels, but this was not enough for him. His pride made him question the position he held and he thought he was worthy to be like God. Because of this, he stirred up rebellion among the angels and God had to drive him and the rebellious angels out of heaven. Lucifer changed from an angel to a demon.
This is the origin of pride. That’s why every sin has pride at its root. As long as you don’t recognize it in your life, you will be vulnerable to it. Those who recognize their own pride will be able to fight against it, but those who don’t, won’t.
Pay attention to the typical behavior of a proud person:
- She does not recognize her mistakes and does not accept correction. She does everything she cannot have problems pointed out, and apparently, she does not want to disappoint or displease anyone, but actually, what she doesn’t want is to be humiliated by being corrected.
- She does not ask for help nor does she want it. When she does, it’s because it’s too late and there is no way back. For example, when she falls into sin, when she separates from her husband, when she does what she wasn’t supposed to do.
- She does not apologize. She may repent, but isn’t capable of expressing her repentance. It is too humiliating, so she prefers to act as if nothing happened.
- She does not submit easily. She may do so occasionally, but only to those in authority. Many wives do not submit to their husbands, or daughters to their parents, or youth to their elders, or the younger to the more experienced … they think it is unnecessary.
- She likes her independence. In fact, she hates to depend on others. She likes to do everything by herself, and later on say she did not need anyone to do it. She is even independent of God, doesn’t pray, doesn’t seek, thinks she is self-sufficient.
- She wants everything done her way because she thinks she knows better, understands better and knows what is best. She doesn’t want to know the will of God and, sometimes uses “faith” to insist that her way is the best. When she does not receive what she asks of God, she revolts against Him, as if God were wrong.
- She likes to give her opinion on everything. She does not take criticism and does not hesitate to clash with others, just to affirm that what she thinks is right.
This list goes on, of course… pride is not always that easy to detect. Just to give you some idea, I noticed in myself an act of pride that I shamelessly thought was faith! That’s why we have to constantly question the reason why we want something, why we do what we do or why we say the things we do.
The Task as an Offering 9 is for you to recognize where and in what way you were proud. That’s the first step to starting the process of humility.
When you recognize you are proud, you start the process of humility.
For this task, you will need to do a little research. After all, the topic is much more complicated than posting a simple comment. You will ask three people a question: someone from your family, someone from your circle of friends (it cannot be your friend like sister), and someone from your workplace (church, neighborhood or school). You will ask them the following question: Have you ever seen any proud behavior in me?
Write the answers in your diary. Don’t worry or feel like the worst person in the world. The good news is that now you will know where you need to change and the next task will help you to work on this list…
In the faith and in the Secret Place of the Most High.