Looking at those same walls and picture portraits were getting to me. I turned around and the more I tried to focus on everything else, the less I did… the less I tried to think about it, the more I did. I shut myself in the bathroom and poured myself out to God.
‘I don’t want to feel this way… I don’t want to be emotional about this… I know I have to be in the faith, but knowledge is not enough Lord, help me do that.’
Washed my face off. Moved on with my day.
It’s very common for us women to feel the need to share how we feel, it’s like we need other people’s pity and sympathy. But it’s also very common for us to feel worse once we do that. All my friends cried with me, they felt my pain, and I really appreciated that, but none of them helped… there’s nothing anyone can do really…
The only way you can be helped is to take it to God. Vent to Him. Let it be between you and Him. And trust Him with it. That’s all. Some things in life are out of our jurisdiction, as hard as it may seem… there’s nothing we can do about it.
And when that’s the case, the best thing you can do for yourself and that situation is to throw in the towel. I’m not saying you should give up, I’m saying let God catch that towel for now.